Mamihlapinatapai

“Mamihlapinatapai: A look shared by two people with each wishing that the other will initiate something that both desire but which neither one wants to start.”

I find it hard to stop myself from asking if you are happy.

I see the cold between us and the sorrow in your eyes; in your smile.

I wonder if you have regrets for past mistakes.

For bad experiences that left you with a sour taste.

That same smile that tries to disguise all the pain, but I see it.

And I want nothing more than to touch you and see that that pain is defeated.

For you to feel a connection again and relight the fire you so desire.

To stop the thoughts enough for you to breathe fresh air again.

A new memory to help turn the page so that you do not become another Marilyn.

But your defenses fend off my approach; from asking the questions I so seek answers to.

I cannot explain why I care to notice or why I want to help you through it.

Maybe, it is because I have felt the pain and know it doesn’t have to consume the light within you.

That the world out there has the cure to all the pains.

You close yourself off to the possibility of new happiness because it comes with risk and change.

You are seeking the perfect situation, the perfect man, to rescue you from the abyss of your own recollection.

I am not perfect, I come with flaws, but I can help you see the beauty in loving imperfection.

I am open, and have all the intention of being what you need for the time being.

To let you know you are not alone when you want to share that laughter or that feeling.

And when you feel strong again you can leave, never to see me again, if you so desire.

Or you can decide to stay and continue to rebuild your present, so that you can once again envision a brighter future.

Whatever you seek I accept. Because for this moment, I just want to be under the light alongside you.